Mid Autumn Festival

It is mid autumn festival today.. and i had truely a quiet day to begin with.. 5am, the sun rise, but the storm clouds just block the sunlight not even a single ray could see their path onto the earth...

complete 2 sections of thesis.. and 3 more to go to complete.. appendix pending, and graphs and charts pending. changed decision for bein gmore reasonable, so the direction of my thesis changed again..

had some time out for myself, a movie title Julie and Julia - a cooking + love story, "Julia deserves it, but i don't" a phrase that caught my thoughts for a quite some moment.. determination in Julie hit me, for she is doing something she likes, while having a job that she dislikes. In one year, she grew and learnt. Even though not favour by Julia, Julie struggled on.

Came back home, hit by "emo"ness again.. probably is just another emo day for me.. since morning, nothing seems good except thesis.. (which is some wat, good)

cooked 2 pots of corn soup, all ended up in my stomach.. not that I want to.. but it cant be kept.. didnt have any real meal today, coz is just not in a good mood to cook.. hope to go out for a meal.. but just..

i realised that i enjoyed being with myself most of the time, deciding what i want to do, and just do whatever i like. just like Julie.. when there is someone controlling me, even though they are for good, but i just dun understnd why should I be controlled? and when i did something that none in the world supports me, why should I still do it? I admire Julie's perseverence even though nobody suports her except her bf. Everyone can do whatever they wanna do.. drink, sports, watch movie, chatting with frenz, dine out, shopping, whatever.. but when i do something that i enjoy, there will always be someone unhappy with my act? since young, i face this issue.. until today i still do!

gave myself a warm bath.. and here i am, in front of the cold computer, once again.. wanted to continue my thesis, but i guess, is just useless. im not going to produce something good tonight. *doze off*

p/s: I am glad that the pegeons always make me smile whenever they visit my balcony for some bakers delight's bread. Throughout the day, they have been coming repeatly, to have their meal, while peeping at my progress on thesis and accompany me thru.. Hope you guys like the bread.. take care pegeons. you guys made my day~ =)