In 24 hours time, I will be ending my term as a President.. Well, it's kinda mix feeings.. happy coz i finally can concentrate on my studies, i can finally have some time to rest.. but once again, whenever i stop and not doing anything, a lot of others things will come into my mind.. i will tend to think too much, and put myself into a state between tears and lonely...
I know I will not lost the friendship that i have gained in this one year.. just that somehow something has to change, n i wil have to let go.
I just read my sis's blog just now, and she is kinda facing the same thing.. leaving a place, for better future.. and bcoz of that we have to let go alot of happy moments, learning moments which we would really enjoy.. given that we are really some out-going people.. active and crazy..
it is also bcoz my parents are not around me, so they don't really know my life here. they can't really see how busy I am, or how tired I am, or how stress I am.. thru the phone, is just an update.. I can choose wat i wan, I can do what i wan. And I know my limits well, jz that nagging received is less compare to my sis.. so far i have been juggling my life pretty well here.. enjoying every moment i have, studies, friends, holidays.. u name it.. =) but for my sis, is a bit hard for her to do wat she wanted, especially she will get all the nagging when she decided to do something.. and every holidays, she wil have to plan to go home.. me ? holidays? time to spend money and travel!! with friends, play! retreats! woohoo!!
see the difference between a child studying overseas and one local? they are pros and cons.. parents always ask us to let go a bit.. dun do so much...
well.. i will have to say.. you all oso let go a bit la.. we know ourselves well enough.. we didnt really let go, becoz we have the genes that is passed down by you.. you cant even let go us, how can we learn to let go tings that we enjoy so much? =P
besides.. after we gradaute, we will no longer have time for all this.. seeing my parents rushing in and out, i only see them busy for meetings, their job, their school stuff, students, teachers.. how much time do they have for friendship gatherings? doing charity? or even, call a friend who is long lost?
i wouldnt want to delay what i can do today, for i know when i grow up, when i step into the society, i only have 3 hours after work to do things that i like. and that time i would prefer to rest.. rather than hanging out like this.. so i shall now enjoy what i can~ =)
sorry dad n mum~ is just about letting go. =)allowing your kids to find our sky.. we know ourselves well, because u trained us up. believe in us, dont worry. we are all on the right track. =)
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